Puddle of mudddd.

I like to organise. I like to budget. I like control.

Because out there... outside of my room, I have no control.

and it scares the SHIT outta me.

Apathy at it's FINEST.

I'm in a weird place right now.
I want to drive fast. I want to throw it all away.
I want to be drunk and sleep.
I just can't give two fucks right now.

Please give us 5 minutes alone.

Have you ever woken up and realised there aren't much people out there that care that you actually woke up?

Have you ever tried to go back to sleep and realise you need someone to hold you, but there's no one there.

Just the cold side of the bed.

Sometimes.

Sometimes it's hard to tell is you really look like a size ten or if people are just being nice.

Sometimes it's hard to tell whether what you're feeling is pain or whether, because of the numbness, any feeling at all automatically means pain. Is this hurting? Or is it all in my head?

Sometimes it's hard to say no when you know there won't be anyone there to back you up.

Sometimes it's hard to smile when your mouth won't move that way.