Stuck in a rut.

Routines. Most people try to avoid them, I am one of them. Or at least I was... I'm a little drunk right now. People don't like routine because they don't want to be 'stuck in a rut' and that makes sense. The last thing you want is your life planned to the umpth degree. Spontaneity is essential in keeping things alive. There are somethings you can't really 'plan' per se, a baby, a break up, a miscarriage. Some find routines constricting, like having a tight budget or wearing tight pants. If you want to do something on a whim, you can't really because you've got to do the washing at a certain time so it's dried before dinner, you need to start dinner at a certain time so it's ready for when everyone comes home etc etc. I have come to live with such routines and they suck. No two ways about it, but there are some routines, smaller, more insignificant routines that help us live. Without stating the obvious of breathing, moving to get blood to the rest of your body, stretching to ease cramps, there are other routines. Such as our panic mechanism. We all have different ways of dealing with stress and panic and anxiety, most of these skills of dealing we have honed over time and we've found the perfect ways to contain the emotions. We may run the bath and while the bath is running we might find the trashiest novel or we might pour a glass of wine (tre cliche, no?) but it's a routine. Another scenario is thinking. So you've a lot of things written down to do tomorrow and just before you leave you organise how you're going to attack the list. This organisation is part of a routine. We might organise it so that we go to the closest places first or we may organise it so that the most time consuming are done last, how ever we organise it, we created that criteria based on honing a routine.

I think routines save us. Not the mundane routines where you find people killing themselves because it's the only way out. Some routines make travelling through life a little easier.

Boy, I can barely focus on the screen right now. I hope this all made sense.